The person that goes into a relationship isn't the person that arrives at the end. The growth that occurs - positive or otherwise - turns us into a new version of ourselves. One who will make different decisions, will relate differently to others and, creatively perhaps, one who has other things to say.
We are never fully formed so be creative whenever you want to, but it has to be driven by that creative urgency, not timetables or some kind of obligation.
I’m going to be honest, I don’t know how your newsletter found my email, I’ve only been on here three times in two years. But I’m so glad it did. You write beautifully. I felt every word in my bones. Thank you.
I appreciate this message, thank you. For me, it's a good reminder to slow down and give attention to my heart, and give care to what needs care. Trust, and follow my heart. Because, I remember again, when I do that, everything emerges naturally. And come back to the body also! Our bodies are wise, attuned to true needs and simple joys. So I'm gonna stop reading the news and do my morning meditation. Thanks again Kimbra and good wishes. PS - I love Billie Holiday, and I remember listening to that song on my parent's hi-fi (my dad taught me how to use it!). The record we had, I now know, was from late in her life (Lady Sings the Blues, 1956). Primal memories and feelings around the sound of her voice--slight tremor, slight huskiness--rainy day music, the rain in her voice, powerful sadness and longing that I could feel, even if I didn't have words to describe or understand. I think now that what I felt is what Lorca called the duende--"not in the throat, it surges up from the soles of the feet"! https://www.poetryintranslation.com/PITBR/Spanish/LorcaDuende.php
I am currently in a place where the letting go of the "I should..." is of being creative in any way. Going and going for 45 years and I literally feel bereft. After a year, I am feeling better about it and ok with just being. I need to miss it...like really miss it. I find I am listening to music for pure pleasure more than ever, something that I did not do as much while in a creative head space. Audio books, many about music producer or musician bios. I look forward to it again when I am able to just sit and listen! The funny thing is that, I am back in a creative mode but only while I am dreaming. I am Engineering live shows, (though invariably, the show is just about to start and the mics are missing and nothing is set up yet!), I'm Mastering or tracking recordings, playing guitar or keyboards, work in Logic, etc. Such an odd thing, but right now I am ok with it! See you down the road!
Wow. This articulated so much of what I’ve been feeling recently and avoiding pinning down. I completely resonate with rushing ‘to put shapes to things at a time when they want to be shapeless’ — our world often rewards products and productivity but dismisses or undervalues the space in which these things can generatively manifest. I love that you are investigating what rhythm works for you right now. I think that only good things can come from that honesty and self nurture. Ps. I have so much appreciation for you, your mind, and your multi-faceted art, no matter how much or quickly you create! ✨😊
I feel this too, thanks for sharing - hugs from Canada! The calligraphy experiment is beautiful and seems like it has a lot to say...the lower left reminds me of a heart that is connected to so many people and feelings but is kinda struggling under the weight of them.
I'm working through a similar tension between letting seeds grow and feeling the demand to act. A friend said yesterday that her therapist shared with her something like, "Wait, and it will become clear what we need to do." Like sleep, waiting and resting and refilling are part of the cycle of growth. Very hard for do-ers and speakers and teachers. Yet necessary. Thank you for sharing what you wished to share.
Kimbra - I love receiving your newsletter. You live the life and walk the path of a true artist. It is so inspiring to me to see you creating in different ways, your honesty and authenticity. It's beautiful to witness. Thanks for sharing with us.
Every thought expressed so beautifully Kimbra….its always a wonder to me how deeply someone else’s expressions resonate with my own head and heart. I appreciate you.
Kimbra, thank you for your words and song. I get what you're saying and have had similar feelings about my own posting efforts. I don't have answers for either of us. But as your fan and a paying subscriber to your substack, I want you to know that I care about you and don't want to see you burn out on sharing with us here out of a sense of obligation. Burn out here could affect you in other ways, too, and that's not good. So, please, do what is necessary to take care of yourself, physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. I support you all the way in your decision to slow down it that's what you need to do. Seriously, if you just posted a song or a poem or even just gave us a paragraph on how you're doing every so often (maybe bi-weekly or even monthly), it's the connection with you that I crave. Maybe it's the same for your other fans here? Just because we're doing this on Substack instead of X or Bluesky doesn't mean that every post you make here has to be more weighty than what you might post there. That's how this fan feels, anyway. Peace.
My perspective is this.
The person that goes into a relationship isn't the person that arrives at the end. The growth that occurs - positive or otherwise - turns us into a new version of ourselves. One who will make different decisions, will relate differently to others and, creatively perhaps, one who has other things to say.
We are never fully formed so be creative whenever you want to, but it has to be driven by that creative urgency, not timetables or some kind of obligation.
I’m going to be honest, I don’t know how your newsletter found my email, I’ve only been on here three times in two years. But I’m so glad it did. You write beautifully. I felt every word in my bones. Thank you.
Everything I’ve been feeling masterfully put into words ♥️
Wonderful, and wise
I appreciate this message, thank you. For me, it's a good reminder to slow down and give attention to my heart, and give care to what needs care. Trust, and follow my heart. Because, I remember again, when I do that, everything emerges naturally. And come back to the body also! Our bodies are wise, attuned to true needs and simple joys. So I'm gonna stop reading the news and do my morning meditation. Thanks again Kimbra and good wishes. PS - I love Billie Holiday, and I remember listening to that song on my parent's hi-fi (my dad taught me how to use it!). The record we had, I now know, was from late in her life (Lady Sings the Blues, 1956). Primal memories and feelings around the sound of her voice--slight tremor, slight huskiness--rainy day music, the rain in her voice, powerful sadness and longing that I could feel, even if I didn't have words to describe or understand. I think now that what I felt is what Lorca called the duende--"not in the throat, it surges up from the soles of the feet"! https://www.poetryintranslation.com/PITBR/Spanish/LorcaDuende.php
I am currently in a place where the letting go of the "I should..." is of being creative in any way. Going and going for 45 years and I literally feel bereft. After a year, I am feeling better about it and ok with just being. I need to miss it...like really miss it. I find I am listening to music for pure pleasure more than ever, something that I did not do as much while in a creative head space. Audio books, many about music producer or musician bios. I look forward to it again when I am able to just sit and listen! The funny thing is that, I am back in a creative mode but only while I am dreaming. I am Engineering live shows, (though invariably, the show is just about to start and the mics are missing and nothing is set up yet!), I'm Mastering or tracking recordings, playing guitar or keyboards, work in Logic, etc. Such an odd thing, but right now I am ok with it! See you down the road!
Wow. This articulated so much of what I’ve been feeling recently and avoiding pinning down. I completely resonate with rushing ‘to put shapes to things at a time when they want to be shapeless’ — our world often rewards products and productivity but dismisses or undervalues the space in which these things can generatively manifest. I love that you are investigating what rhythm works for you right now. I think that only good things can come from that honesty and self nurture. Ps. I have so much appreciation for you, your mind, and your multi-faceted art, no matter how much or quickly you create! ✨😊
Beautiful voice. Soulful..meaningful. ❤️
I feel this too, thanks for sharing - hugs from Canada! The calligraphy experiment is beautiful and seems like it has a lot to say...the lower left reminds me of a heart that is connected to so many people and feelings but is kinda struggling under the weight of them.
Wow so cool you saw that, and yes I bet that is coming strongly from my subconscious. We see afresh through others eyes
I'm working through a similar tension between letting seeds grow and feeling the demand to act. A friend said yesterday that her therapist shared with her something like, "Wait, and it will become clear what we need to do." Like sleep, waiting and resting and refilling are part of the cycle of growth. Very hard for do-ers and speakers and teachers. Yet necessary. Thank you for sharing what you wished to share.
Kimbra - I love receiving your newsletter. You live the life and walk the path of a true artist. It is so inspiring to me to see you creating in different ways, your honesty and authenticity. It's beautiful to witness. Thanks for sharing with us.
K Your the One, Be the One. St T would be proud of thee. Love and Light. Best Wishes C
Give what you want to be given…woah!
Every thought expressed so beautifully Kimbra….its always a wonder to me how deeply someone else’s expressions resonate with my own head and heart. I appreciate you.
Kimbra, thank you for your words and song. I get what you're saying and have had similar feelings about my own posting efforts. I don't have answers for either of us. But as your fan and a paying subscriber to your substack, I want you to know that I care about you and don't want to see you burn out on sharing with us here out of a sense of obligation. Burn out here could affect you in other ways, too, and that's not good. So, please, do what is necessary to take care of yourself, physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. I support you all the way in your decision to slow down it that's what you need to do. Seriously, if you just posted a song or a poem or even just gave us a paragraph on how you're doing every so often (maybe bi-weekly or even monthly), it's the connection with you that I crave. Maybe it's the same for your other fans here? Just because we're doing this on Substack instead of X or Bluesky doesn't mean that every post you make here has to be more weighty than what you might post there. That's how this fan feels, anyway. Peace.
That means a lot! Thank you!
Well said Michael!